It has been a while since this has happened, this being the blog, and the happening being the rare occurrence of me writing on it...weeee. This rare occurrence, though, is going to have to happen much more often than it has in the past, because I am heading into a new course in my life.
I am actually battling procrastination, and at 10:10 pm it seems to be a battle that I am winning. Next weekend I plan to do half my homework on a saturday, rather than all of it on sunday. Hopefully with the passing of time, I will be doing almost all of my homework after school Friday, and finishing up that thing or two on saturday, and then free to be a bum and bum around (no homo) all sunday evening.
Without sounding too full of myself...well there isn't really a way I can NOT sound that way in the short time that I have right now, but basically I have always known that among all my faults, writing has always been a talent for me. Since I was little, I have always had a perfect score in voice grade, and later on in life I have always made little sketches or plays or skits with probably little depth but amazing voice work, and humour.
After a brief talk with my Theatre teachers, I have been advised to simply write. This will help me achieve my current goal of getting into scriptwriting as a profession. It is something I always enjoy doing, and which I thrive at. Now my scriptwriting is definetly not perfect, this is due to my procrastination. But considering how they have always been written at the last minute, they are simply masterpieces of the procrastinator.
If I am somehow able to overcome this ignominious habit, I can see how good I actually am at scriptwriting, and pursue that for the rest of my life.
As for my previous interest, Video Game designer, turns out M.I.T. (yes THE M.I.T.) is offering video game courses, which has finally made my parents approve of this path. My ultimate dream job would be a video game writer/designer, but my theatre teacher has opened my eyes to Hollywood, stating that with just one masterpiece, i can Ben Affleck/Matt Damon my way into Hollywood.
I have not reached this split path yet, one cannot advance in the midst of a battle (fuck you procrastination), but it is a decision that is going to come up, and I will weigh the options and ultimately choose my path in the near future. Time has a knack of flying by, so it may seem like yesterday that I wrote this, then it will seem like yesterday that I made my decision, then it will seem like yesterday when I made it...or failed.
One last thought, without being Emo or suicidal or depressed, I have come to the understanding that I am going to die, and it is quite a relief. Of course I'm not looking for death in all directions, all that has happened is I am not wasting time with things, and moving on quickly because Life is short. Although i still wonder, if I have really accepted death as the finish line, if a mugger points a gun to my head that I will not cry and beg for my life, if I am driving and fall into a lake that I will not panic because I really do not fear death. I have also not accepted that there is a heaven, or a hell. There is no where, and we go there, we go nowhere. Now you can divert your attention elsewhere because i am done with these thoughts which where playing in my mind as if in a fair. A hectic one, like in Brazil...crazy.
